5.22.2012

Jacob

I'm being emotional

This post is about my brother.
He just finished up his Junior year of high school.
That absolutely blows my mind.
My baby brother is going to be a Senior.
Crazy.
I wanted a baby brother as far back as I can remember.
When I was 5 years old, I shut my parents in a closet and said,
"I want a brother. Don't come out until I have one."
They must have listened to me,
because less than 1 year later, my wish came true.
I had my brother.
I will never be able to express how thankful I am for him.
There are 5 years and 10 months between us...
Since I am the older sibling,
I should be his protector, right?
Wrong.
He has been my protector since he was 6 years old.
That's when I started getting sick.
He has been beside me through everything.
Right beside me.
Holding my hand, feeding me ice chips, crying with me, praying with me...
He never left my side.
Sometimes I feel guilty,
because I'm afraid my sickness took away his childhood.
My first surgery, in 2005, was the day before his 10th birthday.
He spent his birthday in the hospital with me.
He always felt like he had to be so strong.
When I found out the cancer was back, in 2009, I wanted my little brother.
We cried for hours.

I don't know what I would have done without him.
I don't think I would have been nearly as strong.
I don't think I would have fought as hard.
God knew I needed my brother.
I don't know if any of that made any sense.
It makes sense to me.
And I know it would make sense to him.
Anyway.
My brother.
Is awesome.
I love him.








6 comments:

CarleeJ said...

This is so inspirational. You have a wonderful brother. I can tell you are so thankful. Lovely post.
Carlee

http://allthingsaveragegirl.blogspot.com/

Mrs. Robinson said...

Awww - the sweetest post. =) I have a little sister who just finished her first year of college. They grow up so fast.

Geezees Custom Canvas Art said...

what a sweet post to your sweet brother...he seems like such a great guy!!

Shaylynn... I blahwg It's True. said...

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH, I love your brother.

The Pink Growl said...

OMG I'm teary! So glad you have a good relationship with your brother! I am very close to my baby brother too, who is really not a baby anymore at 22. It's such a special relationship!

Lucy McCracken said...

your post had me in tears. You have a wonderful brother. It's so awesome that he has been thre for you in some really painful times of your life. I hope and pray that you are better and that the cancer does not come back. I can't imagine life without my twin brothers as well. I love your blog and I'm your new follower from
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